Where are you motivation? Dawn of new day and my drive, ambition, or lack thereof is already rearing its ugly head. I’m in serious trouble. Day one and I want chocolate! Really who am I kidding that this blog is going to somehow ignite a kinetic chain reaction and all will fall into place. It’s like I just want to morph back into that happier, healthier, fitter person that I used to be 6 months ago. Today, my first day back to work after the holidays, and warning, this requires you to sit down before reading, my fat pants (you know that pair of pants that you wear when you’re feeling larger than normal for whatever monthly reasons). Come on! Everyone has at least one pair in their closet. Well mine were tight! Really, my fat pants were tight! Can the universe be so cruel on my first day back? It’s day one people and I’m supposed to be thinking about positive changes and inspiring my family to keep on the same track and I’m fixated on my fat pants. Trying to move along when all I really want to do is fabricate every reason other than the truth as to why my fat pants do not feel right and shamefully blame it on my laundry detergent. It’s possible in my warped mind?
Exercise: I did manage a work out at the gym during lunch. I was late leaving which cut into my time but I did Walk 3.20 Km in 30 mins on the treadmill with 5 incline. My butt is already sore J which, to me, is a good thing. When I work out, I want to feel that fatigue in my muscles afterwards. This somehow validates that I worked hard. As a busy mom, I need to get the biggest bang for my time when I work out and it has to count. If I do it, I do it so to speak. I guess this warped mind set comes from my time being limited and when you have to move heaven and earth to find exercise time, you make it valuable. My plan is to track how active we are as a family and post it regularly.
Nutrition: On the food front, not too shabby... Started with my usual fibre one, ground flax, chia seeds, blackberries and blueberries. This is a stable in my diet as I am fanatical about fibre. I love all things fibre and quite often my family catches me adding fibre to whatever I can. Imagine being told by your 9 year old, that fibre one and ice cream do not go together! What? Are you kidding me? It’s a great combo and I love that crunch! Has anyone else tried this? Really missing out here people? Give it a whirl next time with some fruit added in and you will not go back. Missed my snack due to work but managed to scoff down a awesome salad with greens, sweet peppers, broccoli, turkey and some light poppy seed dressing on the side. Umm delicious and filling for about 60 mins... moved along to a whey protein shake thinking it would curb my eat anything in site mind set and it worked till about the drive home at which time I ate my weight in almonds. Seriously, I was in control and ate only 10. I wanted to eat more but held back thinking about my fat pants.
Mental Health: I weighed in at the gym and that should about cover it all. I’m in shock! I was going to post it today but I’m backing out. Maybe tomorrow, next week, month? I have this innate terror of sharing my weight with others. Why? Intellectually, I realise that it’s just a number but really, it’s such a big number and one that comes with a lot of negative emotions that I’m not ready to put out there in blog world. I don’t even want to type it.
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